Friday, October 24, 2008

Time To Get My Shit Together

I've been a little blue lately...

Because of this, my muffin top hasn't disappeared, my house is a mess, I'm behind on my laundry,  I've been eating crappy and not exercising as regularly as I should, no blogging...all of this makes me more depressed.

So I just need to start doing stuff that I know will make me feel better.
  • Make exercise and running a priority to get my endorphins going to improve my attitude.
  • Quit eating candy corns (the truly evil part of Halloween).
  • Try to get at least one household chore done each day.
  • Hug and love my kids every day (easy peasy).
Thats enough for today...really I think that is all I can focus on right now.

Boss update:  things are actually going okay on this front considering.  It is an emotional roller coaster...somedays everyone is positive and hopeful...other days reality kicks our butt.  My boss is a lot stronger than he was a month ago after he had the reaction to his meds, and has really cut back on the pain meds.   He had very little side effects with his first round of chemo.  He has started losing his hair and leaves for Chicago on Sunday for a second round of Chemo.  My fingers are crossed that things go well in Chicago.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

More Life

I have nothing fun to report...I feel guilty not posting, but on the flip side I feel guilty posting anything that seems frivolous at this point.

Here's the deal, last month my boss was diagnosed with lung cancer. The cancer has also spread into his liver and back...evidently it is a very fast spreading cancer. He has been given a year to live. He has never smoked, lives a very healthy lifestyle, a great family man that has been married to the same woman for 25 or so years, three great kids. He is 56, and by all accounts has had a great life and been very successful...but it is just so shocking still and things are moving fast.

I don't work for one of his companies, I work for him personally managing the financial aspects of the many companies he owns. This means I am having to take over on a lot of stuff and keep it running while he is in treatment, etc. Also, one of my jobs the past few weeks has been "training" his wife and kids on how the companies are structured and work so that they can understand things when he is gone. It has been tough...I don't like to cry at work, but I have been.

This week was bad...he had an adverse reaction to some of the meds and had to be admitted to the hospital for several days with internal bleeding, fluid in his lungs, a fever, and they thought his organs were shutting down. We thought we were going to lose him now, rather than in a year or so. Once they took him off those meds though he improved and he is coming home today.

When I first heard the diagnosis I thought if anyone can beat it he can, he is strong and healthy other than the cancer...and determined...but now I don't know.

So I haven't fallen off the planet...but really some days I wish I could just vegetate in front of the TV all day and not think about anything.

I appreciate any and all positive thoughts sent this way.